I’m not sure how I feel about Facebook right now. I’m kinda getting over most social media, but Facebook has particularly been bothering me lately.
I have 476 “Friends” on Facebook. I know, we’ve all heard the talk around who’s really your friend, why you have certain people in this category at all, how some of your “friends” wouldn’t even speak to you if they saw you in real life…But that’s not really what’s bothering me.
I’ve recently developed a perceived physical sickness from scrolling ad nauseum. I’m sure it has something to do with staring at a little screen, and probably NOthing to do with my aging eyesight. But it’s even more than that.
I feel physically sickened by knowing so much about so many people – their kids, their jobs, their political and religious affiliations – only the parts they’re proud of, of course – and I don’t know why I need to know all of this, and I honestly wonder if parts of my brain are being overrun by irrelevant bits and pieces about people I may or may not actually care about – along with beautiful scenes in Italy and mouth-watering culinary masterpieces. I certainly don’t need to take up space in the emotion department of my head with car accidents that happened near Lubbock, men being arrested for abusing dogs in rural Indiana, and a football player I’ve never heard of who has been accused of abusing his kids. I love the quippy little smart-ass quotes, but I find myself replacing real human conversation with the recitation of funny things I read. I love seeing pictures of my friends’ kids grow up, and I hope they enjoy the moments that I decide to share, but at times it almost feels like exploitation. Most of the kids featured – mine included…most recent pic was a car-ride-napping pic – didn’t make the choice to have their picture passed around to hundreds of people. And referencing my “Confidence” post, I too often find myself critiquing/judging things that have nothing to do with me or my business.
And I can’t leave the Facebook quizzes off my list – I don’t really need to know what state Facebook thinks you should live in, and I CERTAINLY DON’T NEED TO WASTE MY BRAINCELLS WONDERING WHAT STATE I SHOULD LIVE IN. BUT I DO.
Next Self(ish)-Improvement challenge. No Facebook until Sunday. I know that’s only three-and-a-half days away, but it’s a first step. I want to see how I feel, even though I already know.
This theme I’ve created has kinda turned into a monster. I’ve sort of created 26 years worth of Lents into 26 days. I’m not even Catholic – I don’t need this kind of pressure!! Just kidding – I do.